Friday, September 28, 2018

Soar Higher


         So I love kids picture books. They are a simple fun way to get a quick pick me up when feeling down. I have quite a few favorites and I’ve been fortunate enough to have bought a few of those favorites. So I reached this goal. Since I became full time at my job I would hit the snooze button every morning and lay in bed for an extra hour feeling anxious about the day. I imagined it would help with the anxiety if I stopped hitting the snooze button and started getting up right when my alarm woke me up. So I started getting up right when my alarm went off. So how do these two things relate? Well I stopped hitting the snooze button for 31 days now. So to reward myself I went to Barnes and Noble to buy a kids book. The two books I wound up buying (yep couldn’t settle for one) were ones that I’ve wanted for awhile. These two books are great.

One called The Color Monster: A Pop-Up Book of Feelings by Anna LLenas. This is the best pop-up book I’ve ever seen (not that I’ve seen a lot) but I love the concept of a monster who has a variety of feelings and how he copes with all those different feelings. He winds up putting his feelings into bottles to set them apart because together he’s just a jumbled up mess of emotions. How many of you can relate to this? I get all jumbled up when the anxiety hits me or a maniac episode. We all have those days when our emotions are hard to get a handle on. I just love the way this book deals with it. Like I said, a fun and simple way to just release a little anxiety and have some fun. I just love reading.

The second book is called After the Fall: How Humpty Dumpty Got Back Up Again by Dan Santat. He has a book called Beeker: The Unimaginary Friend, which is how I stumbled unto this great writer. I also bought his book called Drawn Together that he wrote, which I will blog about another time. In this book Humpty Dumpty falls off the wall but the king’s men put him back together. After he’s put back together he’s afraid of heights. Since he’s afraid of heights he misses out on some of his favorite things, like watching the birds from the view of the wall. Or even his favorite cereal which is on the top shelf and he’d have to climb a ladder to get to it. Aren’t we so like this version of Humpty Dumpty? We fall down and we are afraid to get back up to the level we fell from. That is what happened to this Humpty Dumpty. 

I love what happens. He creates a paper airplane/bird and he’s happy again with this bird. Happier than he’s been in a long time and then disaster strikes it goes over the very wall he’s afraid to climb. So he’s faced with a decision: climb the wall or stay on the ground. So too are we faced with a decision: get back up and face our fears or lie dormant, not making any progress in our lives. I so hope that I will be like Humpty Dumpty who decided to climb the wall despite his fears. I so hope I continue to push against that wall of fear no matter what fear it is. I’ve pushed through a lot of fear in my life and I still have some fears to face. So here’s some lines from this book and yes I think you should read it but I’m gonna spoil the ending for you; how else can I make my point here? The following words are copyrighted by Dan Santat. So this is after Humpty Dumpty’s paper airplane/bird goes over the wall.

“I almost walked away again. But then I thought about all the time I’d spent working on my plane, and all the other things I’d missed. I decided I was going to climb that wall. But the higher I got, the more nervous I felt. I didn’t want to admit it: I was terrified. I didn’t look up. I didn’t look down. I just kept climbing. One step at a time…until I was no longer afraid. Maybe now you won’t think of me as that egg who was famous for falling. Hopefully, you’ll remember me as the egg who got back up…and learned how to fly.”

What I loved about this ending is that Humpty Dumpty the egg cracks and turns into a bird and flies.

We all can do what Humpty Dumpty did.

Face our fears and learn to fly no matter what life throws at us.

We can all face our fears, one step at a time.

Friday, September 21, 2018

War Cry


A war cry flows from the depths of me:

I am free.

 I will accept nothing less than freedom.

The war cry comes from the depths of me:

Anxiety, you have to flee in the name of Jesus.

Fear, you have to flee in the name of Jesus.

 Insecurity, you have to flee in the name of Jesus.

Lack, you have to flee in the name of Jesus.

Judgment, you have to flee in the name of Jesus. 

From the depths of me I cry, it is finished, it is done.

I’m through with the lies of the enemy.

I’m protected by the shield of faith from his fiery lies.

This war cry comes from the deepest depths of my soul, Charge!

 I run toward the lies with the sword of the Spirit.

It will divide the lies down to their very marrow.

The sword of truth cuts to the heart of every lie.

It rips it from its vessel and leaves a carcass with no power.

Lies, you’re dead to me.

I will no longer listen to anything that falls from your lips.

Fear, you’re dead to me.

I know who my Savior is. I know who I am.

Ye though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil.

For thou art with me.

Anxiety, you’re dead to me.

God has come through every single time you’ve seized me.

I’m done giving ear to the lie that tells me my Savior isn’t with me.

The lie that whispers you’ll never make it, you’re dead to me.

I’ve made it, again and again with Christ by my side every step of the way.

I will face each battle for I am not naïve to this war.

The war for my mind was waged and even though I went to the edge of my sanity I still came through victorious.

At the edge of my sanity, in the abyss Christ had his arms open wide because I am his and he is mine.  

This constant battle has not taken me by surprise.

I am a warrior for Christ and the attacks will come, but God will always be the victor in every battle.

Therefore, I will come out victorious.

Therefore, we will come out victorious.

What battle are you facing?

What’s your war cry?

Genuinely Yours,

Amy Z

Friday, September 14, 2018

Hands that Save


God
Palms
Strong Palms
Beautiful palms
Caring palms
Hands steady
Loving protective
Gatherer
Safe
Warm
Kind
Palms shape and form our lives
Jesus
Hands outstretched paid the price
Hands that showed the scars to the one who doubted
Hands that heal
Hands that love
Hands called forth Peter out of the boat
Hands that brought Peter out of the water
Hands that beckon to a calling
Hands that raised and said peace be still to the storm
Hands that pulled me up when I fell
Hands with an open embrace
Hands that gather his sheep
Hands that prayed to the father
Strong hands brought forth many out of oppression
God
Hands that pulled me up from the pit and set my feet upon a rock
Hands that shape and form who I’m becoming.
Me
Engraved on the palms of God’s hands
My weak hands stretched forth in faith
Hands that shoot upward in surrender
Hands that rise up in worship
Jesus
Hands that protect from danger and provide refuge
God
Hands that protect from the view I can’t handle, like God’s hand over Moses in the cleft of the rock, hands that shield me from seeing what would harm me.
Jesus
At the right hand of the Father
Righteous right hand stretched forth to protect, to comfort, to heal, to guide, to love, clean hands, holy hands
My hands
My hands touching my mother’s face
My hands hugging my sister
My hands raised in worship
My hands raised in praise
My hands raised in surrender

Lord use my hands to touch people’s lives for your kingdom.
God
None can stay his hand. Daniel 4:35
Once God’s hand is in it none can stop him

Friday, September 7, 2018

Beauty From Ashes


Beauty from ashes. This is so true I feel like I’m finally coming out of the ashes of broken dreams, of stagnation, of unrealistic expectations, of lies that said I’m not good enough, or I’m not worth it, or you’re going to fail. If we learn from every trial then how is that failure? Failure is lack of success, an unsuccessful person or thing. Synonyms are defeat, collapse and disappointment. Success is achievement of an aim or purposes. Synonyms are: triumph, thrive and make it.

                Well I associate with success and my life even looks successful. I had a goal to have the career I have and I have it. I am thriving, I’m doing really well, truly. I am beautiful and I have risen from the ashes of an unfulfilled life. I am not that shy, grief stricken, anxious, socially awkward, unloved, unloving hurt child. I am a woman who has achieved her dreams. I am a published writer, I have written a book about God and my testimony for his glory. I have made money writing, I made a living writing. I wanted to be in the career I have two years ago and now I have it. I wanted a BA in writing and I got it.

I am a go getter.

There’s no such thing as failure if you put yourself in a position to learn.

At this stage those ashes of my past blew away a long time ago in the wind of my success.

Genuinely Yours,

Amy Z