Small Dreams

I heard a song called small dreams and it got me thinking about my dreams. It got me thinking about the dreams other people sometimes think we should have. Like the dream of getting married and having children. I do hope to one day find the man who is meant for me and either have children or adopt children but society told me to get married when I was 18 and it didn’t happen. I was a very shy young lady and didn’t actually start dating until I was 30. I have not wanted to marry any of the men I dated. So I’m waiting for God’s wisdom to come through on the man I should marry. I want it to be the man that will love me like Christ loved the church. I want it to be a man who loves the Lord with all his heart, mind and strength. I’m willing to wait for that man. I’m not willing to pick the man myself because I don’t value myself quite as much as I should, and I definitely don’t value myself as much as God values me. I am precious to the Lord, but sometimes I forget that and want to settle for a man that doesn’t value himself let alone value me.

A few years ago my small dream was to just have a job. I started out at the bottom position in this job. A year after that I was promoted. Now that small dream has blossomed into a calling on my life. I have been promoted again and there is no job out there that is better suited for me than this one. I come into contact with people of all ages and I can make a difference in their lives by shining the light of Christ in the workplace. I have in no way arrived dear readers. I have my struggles and I have my days and sometimes I even question if this is really a calling on my life, but then I remember that when I was reading my bible in 2015 I had a question come to mind. 

What are you born for? 

I said to myself what was Joseph born for? 

For the saving of many lives. 

What was Jesus born for? 

For the saving of many lives through salvation. 

What was Esther born for? 

For the saving of many lives. 

So as I was questioning what the people in the bible were born for I questioned what was I born for? 

I believe that the Lord spoke to me in that moment and I knew that I was born for the career I'm in. I'm surrounded by a lot of knowledge and I believe it is the right place for me. At that time, I was in a lower position than I am now, I didn’t know how far I would go in this career. I just knew that God had a purpose for me there. I didn’t start out wanting a career. This career started with the small dream of just having a job. I tell you that small dream has grown into a calling and a huge dream for me. I didn’t know that by having a small dream I was taking the first steps toward a career. I was 34 when I started working where I am now. That’s a little late in life to start a career. 

I’m so grateful to God that he took a small dream and made it into something so much bigger. 

And you know what? 

I 100% believe it is for the saving of many lives. 

What’s your small dream?

Genuinely Yours,

Amy Z